The breaking of the fellowship

half the group departed this morning early. just after the sun rose. while i had 3 hours more to sleep. last night at our farewell dinner dr. ungar was giving hugs and saying goodbyes, because he was leaving right off. and hes probably the best hugger ive ever been hugged by. and ive come to respect him and look up to him in a lot of ways over the course of this trip. but i kinda got the feeling that maybe he didnt like me. no not that so much. but that i let him down a lot. maybe because i never really dressed up for the events and i was late a couple times or sometimes read steppenwolf while the others were carousing. minor crimes right? but i felt like he sometimes took these things personally. like i didnt appreciate his efforts or i wasnt getting the most out the trip. but when he hugged me last night he said your a good kid nathan and youre going to succeed. maybe it sounds trite, like what else would he say. but i believed him when he said it. and it meant so much to me and i didnt know what to say. so i said nothing. but i wish i had. i wish i had told him how much i appreciated his hard work, and how much i enjoyed hearing his stories, and how i didnt think i would ever forget this trip. i wanted to tell him that he made an impact on me. but i didnt. i didnt say anything. i just smiled. and waved goodbye.

this morning i was humbled by some writing on a piece of paper. thank you and im sorry.

tomorrow is our last day of drawing. everyone else will leave the 26th. and ill have a couple days on my own before i fly to zurich.

i dont know if i told you that i neglected to purchase a eurail pass before i left or that i found out last week that you cant purchase them from europe or that it was possible that my parents wouldnt be able to mail it to me before i left for zurich. so this may seem a little anticlimatic. but.. I GOT IT! in the mail today. so my adventure will continue in switzerland and germany and amsterdam and paris. yess..