Appetite

01.22.07
8:27 pm





Everyone slowly begins to lose their appetites. Portion sizes decrease. One grain of rice turns to ten to one hundred left uneaten. An untouched side dish stops calling your name.

That's what everyone tells me anyway. I personally cannot testify to its validity. I have misplaced my stomach and replaced it with a vacuum cleaner.

This however might be more aptly explained by the company I keep than by the diet. Anyone who has traveled with me might recognize this trait. The likable disposal charm that I emote at the dinner table. The shovel-that-onto-plate, leave-no-food-behind, kind of teamwork mentality.

Publicly this would be a viable explanation. But how then would you explain the sizes of my dinners? Perhaps I have simply not grown weary of every available food source yet. I probably ate like this back when I still thought that Hamburger Helper came in more than one flavor.

If this is so, then certainly this honeymoon phase can't last much longer. For dinner I usually eat two sizable bowls of rice, a box of instant curry (of varying flavors), and some fried potatoes, carrots, and hot peppers, followed up by a fried bread cake, and on particularly gluttoness evenings two cream custard cakes. Indeed this is the recipe for a fatty (speaking of fatty, today in one of my classes, one of the suggested activities was called Forcefeed the Fat Boy. The game consisted of taping a picture of a fat boy to a cardboard box and attempting to toss high calorie foods into his "mouth". Isn't that grand?).

I had attributed this increased appetite to the daily exercise I was getting, walking to and from work in the cold, morning workout, and interactions with the kids. And perhaps an increased metabolism due to my daily schedule and mental stimuli and spicy foods.

I don't know why I'm eating so much. But I've decided to try to wean myself off of food. I heard of a guy who meditated all the time and hadn't eaten in years. I sleep almost 9 hours a night, and that's kinda like meditating.